my inspiration.

I have lost my inspiration!

When I was younger I wrote poetry all the time.

I can not understand what has happened?.....

I lost my will to write.

Better yet I lost my inspiration.

And

I need to find it soon.

Day 2, I actually am still alive!!

WOW!! I made it!


It was hard but I have to stay focused! I got a call from the bridal store like: "your dress just arrived we would like to schedule a fitting" :-( ...............


Oooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh NNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

I'm still fat!

Okay, Ima Just be calm!!


I can do it!

No negative effects from the detox so far.
I been drinking lots of water. that's always good right?...

Well, I can only hope that day 2 will be as good as day 1!
We shall see,
Until tomorrow!

My first Day Bloggin, and my first day of my 14day detox!!! Bye Bye FAT!! :-D

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Dear ppl in my puter,

I'm new to this so bare with me, Please? This is my first time!

That means I'm a Bloggin Virgin, so, ya, gotta be gentle! LOL!

Any hoot, I decided to blog about my weight loss journey!

I have always been a BIG girl, but I never considered myself fat, (even though I was over 250 I carried it VERY well!), Suppa Thicke? (Here are a couple pics of me then...... look up!) ...

Oh Yeah!.....

Well, Now I am officially FAT!!!! No, I don't mean PHAT; pretty hot and tempting!

I mean FAT!

I don't even like takin pics anymore!

I am now engaged to be married!

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's awesome right?... I know. But the 60pounds I have gained while dating is sucky!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, even though I know my man Loves me no matter what, (Check me out all Booed up, and check out the ROCK he got me!... Look up) I wanna to feel sexy, I wanna be healthy, I wanna be confident, like I used to be!

I DO NOT WANNA BE SKINNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I liked my size then!

(Sorry, skinny chicks, skinny ain't sexy to me be mad if you wanna I'm stating my reality)

At Max I would like to lose 80pounds, that would literally put me at 215!

I was 260 on the full length pic up top, I am now 300 and some change.

I'm 26 and I'm getting married on Sept 4, 2010!

Desperation Has set in!!!!! LOL!!

No really! :- It has.

I ordered my dress in the size I was back then, and well I'm not that size.

So I have a Plan!

I decided to do a 14day detox to start!

I have joined weight watchers,

Im gonna take a month supply of Acai pure detox,

and Ima Holla at some Alli!!! LOL!

My fiance told me "Dont get that Alli. You will crap your pants" LOL!

Not if I do all that and only eat steamed broccoli, and grilled chicken breast and work out 1 hour a day 7days a week until my dress comes in or until the wedding! :-D

I Can do that right?....

Okay Now do any of you have some realistic Ideas?

Cuz that will never happen, Not ever!!!!!!

Well, tonight is the night I take my first days worth of detox pills it exactly 12pills every night I have to take for the next 14days.

So, here is to day 1 of my Journey!

Here we go ppl!

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